I finally realise nothing is coming out of this. I keep landing in the same situation, the same scenario, the same outcome... time and again, no matter what I do. Each time I did what I could to make it work out, but it always stopped at the same end. It is more than enough evidence that this is the end, isn't it? I can keep pressing on but how far more can I go? It is only a matter of time before it sinks in that there's nothing further to go.

What am I going to do with this complete disentanglement.

Que sera, sera

Lately I've been feeling pretty down. It comes and goes, strangely. I keep looking at the two sides of this situation, both the good, and the bad. When I think of the good it makes me feel assured at least that finally I'll be able to spend more time with my family but when it comes to the bad.... it's just so, so bad. There's so much bad that it overwhelms the good that I don't even know how to look at this anymore.

It's such a bad start to the week and it's just a bad time for everything but hey, for a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic. Midterms aren't over until this week, and I've barely started. I need to focus! Please let this week be over already. I'm just looking forward to the weekends again so I can forget about everything else; no responsibilities, no nothing.