At this juncture, I still can't believe that my longest vacation is really coming to an end. Perhaps too little too soon. Lately, I've been experiencing a myriad of emotions that I don't know exactly how to feel anymore. In a good way, yet in a possibly bad way too. Indeed, time flies. I don't know how I've spent my 9 months holiday, but to be brutally honest, I don't think it has been very fulfilling. Or rather, it was fulfilling in some sense, but it wasn't as fulfilling as I'd planned for it to be post-As period. Why do I say so? Well, it was fulfilling in the sense that I managed to do some of the things I love, or have always wanted to do. And by fulfilling, I am focusing more on the emotional fulfillment that I derived from doing certain things, such as being a student care teacher to a bunch of lovely kids. But one of the things I regret the most was not being able to take this time I was given to travel to explore places I have always wanted to go.
These past 9 months, I have learnt a lot, especially about faith and trust. As cliche as it may sound, I feel like I've grown into a better individual through the various experiences I've been through. I feel like these experiences, and the mistakes I have made have all played a part in moulding me to become a better person.
With just a week more left before I enter a new phase of my life, I suddenly feel like I am running out of time. I feel like there are so many things for me to do, yet I have so little time. I have to juggle work and tuition, and on top of that, I still have to get things done such as my new retainers, new spectacles, my mandatory medical check-up at UHC, getting my hall stuff ready, and meeting up once more with friends before we all begin our new phase of life, sadly, in different universities etc. All in a week! It's insane, I wished I had just a bit more time. On a side note, while I am not exactly looking forward to uni and hall life, a part of me is really excited too, because well, it's the start of something new. For once, I'll be out there alone, having my own room to myself and finally being able to have my very own room decorations!!!! It's also a chance for me to learn to be independent, even though I'd like to believe that I am quite independent already. Though this time round, I'll have to learn to do things like washing my own laundry, and most importantly, getting used to being away from home. I guess I'll have to start packing a little every night now, because I'll have to check in to my hall room this Sunday already. There's just so much to pack, I'm practically bringing my entire house over from the East to the West! Thank goodness JY will be sending me there by car, otherwise I really have no idea how else I was going to bring all of my stuff over. Times like this, I am even more thankful for him. Where else can I find someone who's so willing to help me with whatever he can help me with? Even if it's just a simple question of offering to help me pack my bags, it's already very heartwarming. I just love simple gestures like this.
August is going to be a really exciting month, with the beginning of hall life as well as uni life, RunNUS and Colour Run with my sports camp homies, as well as my very first staycation at Lloyd's Inn etc etc. 2015 has been an awesome year thus far, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I hope that things will either always be this way, or just get better every single time. Sure, that when there are ups there will be downs, but I know I'll get through them.
Here's to a good week ahead; a good end to July.
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