For some strange reason, lately I find myself constantly running back to this little space that contains my thoughts and feelings. Finals week has started and I had my second paper today, which didn't go well at all. But it's okay, it's okay, I shan't think about it anymore because more than anything else, I am so relieved and thankful that this module is finally over. Hopefully it's really "over", so I don't have to redo the module again next semester. While I was on my way back to hall after the paper earlier on, it crossed my mind again - the same thought that has been penetrating my mind almost every single day - to go home. I wanted to be home, to be in my own comfort zone. I wanted to feel safe, to be in the company of my family. I don't quite know how to go about in explaining this. I myself can't comprehend it either. Whatever the case, I'm glad to be home, even though that means I'll have to travel all the way from home back to campus for a paper in the late afternoon tomorrow. But being able to spend the night at home tonight outweighs the long journey back to school tomorrow, and basically, anything and everything else.
Odd enough, finals aren't exactly draining me the way I thought it would. If anything, I am more determined, and more excited for life than I've ever been before. Life after finals, life back at home for one entire month (yay), life like how it has always been before November. Of course, my days do have their gloomy moments, and those really emotional nights when I feel like I'm on the verge of breaking down... or times when I just wanna lie down on my bed and not do anything at all besides stare blankly into space and watch time go by. But I spend everyday thinking about the light that is to come, and the many lights that might.
I am beyond blessed, and contented.
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